The entire last week was quite a horrible week - Started horribly, ended horribly.
Sch as usual was busy. Busy catching up research, doing stuff that I should've done weeks ago and the peak of the week was of course the NAPFA. Horrible~ Horrible...
But nevertheless, I appreciate all the encouragement from u all (u know who u r) and also the good hearted girl who came to motivate me during my 2.4 km (6 laps of those standard track). Eventhough I finished last, yes I finished last dammit, but I'm still happy... coz i finished 6 laps in 20 mins. This is my second time that I managed to finish 6 laps.. previously I gave up at 3rd and 4th round.
I know I know... your eyes must be popping out and mouth gaping open now.. coz I hated doing physical stuff all along especially those that will make me sweat. I loves swimming coz I can't "feel" the sweat.
Anyway, I broke all my personal records for the 6 items.
The aftermath of NAPFA? Thigh muscles ache till I can't walk up and down stairs. Like an robotic old woman. Then yesterday, I feel dizzy whenever I move like getting out of the bed, turning my head etc etc. Today I feel better but still dizzy occasionally.
The worst thing? I can't + no mood to study for the theory test of clinical lab tmr. I think I will faint.
So tired. Looking forward to the one week break and hopefully to have a little getaway. Some island maybe? I don't want to stay at home..
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Growing up
Today I went for the food trail again. Not too boring, Not too fun either. But definitely burned me out.
Yesterday, I joined the grp for some running and practice for the upcoming napfa.
I sucks at running. My heart and lungs just couldn't take it <--- need plenty of practice, see?
Hopefully there will be some more time to build up the stamina and strength.
I must do it~
Politics interest me. I hope to get to know ppl of my age who have their own thoughts of politics.
I realised that I'm not socialising enough. Not getting to know more ppl and all.
I loves to listen to ppl talking bout anything. But not much of a person who talk.
Anyway (as inspire by Gin), we had a talk with one my girlfriend yesterday.
I am not a verbal person and hence didn't say much yesterday, so here goes (u know who u r):
Everyone have their own sets of problem. Whatever it is, be very tactful when managing ur emotions. Try not to let it interferes with work and studies. I know at times it's very difficult, who doesn't feels the same? Saying is easier than done. You don't need the distraction.
I always believe that there's always a outcome to a problem. Be positive and you will overcome. When u talk, the sound waves will always reach my ear. As long as u willing to talk. Alright?
Yesterday, I joined the grp for some running and practice for the upcoming napfa.
I sucks at running. My heart and lungs just couldn't take it <--- need plenty of practice, see?
Hopefully there will be some more time to build up the stamina and strength.
I must do it~
Politics interest me. I hope to get to know ppl of my age who have their own thoughts of politics.
I realised that I'm not socialising enough. Not getting to know more ppl and all.
I loves to listen to ppl talking bout anything. But not much of a person who talk.
Anyway (as inspire by Gin), we had a talk with one my girlfriend yesterday.
I am not a verbal person and hence didn't say much yesterday, so here goes (u know who u r):
Everyone have their own sets of problem. Whatever it is, be very tactful when managing ur emotions. Try not to let it interferes with work and studies. I know at times it's very difficult, who doesn't feels the same? Saying is easier than done. You don't need the distraction.
I always believe that there's always a outcome to a problem. Be positive and you will overcome. When u talk, the sound waves will always reach my ear. As long as u willing to talk. Alright?
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Emotional Roller-Coaster
I've been through an emotional roller-coaster this few days. Have no idea why.. just ups and downs. Sigh~ sigh~ sigh~ I need a break from all these shit..
At times I wonder whether am I over caring bout others' feeling that I neglected my own.
I always try to make ppl esp those with day-to-day close contact to be happy with whtever decision that we make as a group in study and leisure. Damn it~
I'm tired trying to take care of other ppl's feeling.
I'm sick of ppl who only thinks at their own best interest and never mind that they are affecting other ppl when they do that. Don't forget that everybody have their own projects too. Eventhough it's a bit later, but that doesn't mean everything have to wait, postponed and give way to u guys. This is not how things work.
I don't want to say it out loud coz we are friends. Why make everything till so ugly, right?
So all I can do is gulp and wash all the pissed-ness down the throat.
I am no perservative. I don't and can't perserve ur fragile little heart.
I'm finding salt to nurse my own.
At times I wonder whether am I over caring bout others' feeling that I neglected my own.
I always try to make ppl esp those with day-to-day close contact to be happy with whtever decision that we make as a group in study and leisure. Damn it~
I'm tired trying to take care of other ppl's feeling.
I'm sick of ppl who only thinks at their own best interest and never mind that they are affecting other ppl when they do that. Don't forget that everybody have their own projects too. Eventhough it's a bit later, but that doesn't mean everything have to wait, postponed and give way to u guys. This is not how things work.
I don't want to say it out loud coz we are friends. Why make everything till so ugly, right?
So all I can do is gulp and wash all the pissed-ness down the throat.
I am no perservative. I don't and can't perserve ur fragile little heart.
I'm finding salt to nurse my own.
Monday, July 17, 2006
Dentist and Presentations
From my perspectives, dentist and presentations shared the same piece of my mind - it totally freak me out, eventhough the former freak me out more.
Last Wed or so, (I can't remember which day) I finally mustered enough courage to pay the lucky dentist a visit. The outcome? I had 2 upper front teeth filled. Later (appointment at 6.30pm), another 2 upper molar yet to be fill. One or so more visit to put in some metal into one of the tooth and then do crowning. Cost? It can feed me for 2 months. Shit~
I hereby promised that I will have a dental check up every 6 month, chew a piece of gum after each meal, floss my teeth properly and use mouth rinse. <--- some of u may think that I deserved all the pain bcoz I didn't take care of my teeth properly. Hehehe.. nah~ at least I brushed my teeth twice a day..
Sch is quite busy and tiring and exhausted and stressful. 101 things to do, to be done.. on top of the food trail which manage to give me a headache every week without fail so far eventhough I'm not scheduled. Just like today, I have no freaking idea why they or rather she wanted a supplementary lecture(s).. and ask us to talk. Thanks a million to my beloved groupmate, I have to be the one. Already not in the mood, a bit sleepy + tired + bored.. hai~
Anyway, I did it in a monotonous, uninteresting way.. and ppl started talking at the same time.. Fanstatic~
I became more and more verbally vulgar.. which is a bad sign. Coz I only do this when I'm stressed. My stress level is linearly proportional (at least there will a chance that stress and hence vulgar will be zero) to vulgarness.
Stress factor:
- Environment ie school, "home"
- Socially
- Inner self
I shall elaborate some other time.
Last Wed or so, (I can't remember which day) I finally mustered enough courage to pay the lucky dentist a visit. The outcome? I had 2 upper front teeth filled. Later (appointment at 6.30pm), another 2 upper molar yet to be fill. One or so more visit to put in some metal into one of the tooth and then do crowning. Cost? It can feed me for 2 months. Shit~
I hereby promised that I will have a dental check up every 6 month, chew a piece of gum after each meal, floss my teeth properly and use mouth rinse. <--- some of u may think that I deserved all the pain bcoz I didn't take care of my teeth properly. Hehehe.. nah~ at least I brushed my teeth twice a day..
Sch is quite busy and tiring and exhausted and stressful. 101 things to do, to be done.. on top of the food trail which manage to give me a headache every week without fail so far eventhough I'm not scheduled. Just like today, I have no freaking idea why they or rather she wanted a supplementary lecture(s).. and ask us to talk. Thanks a million to my beloved groupmate, I have to be the one. Already not in the mood, a bit sleepy + tired + bored.. hai~
Anyway, I did it in a monotonous, uninteresting way.. and ppl started talking at the same time.. Fanstatic~
I became more and more verbally vulgar.. which is a bad sign. Coz I only do this when I'm stressed. My stress level is linearly proportional (at least there will a chance that stress and hence vulgar will be zero) to vulgarness.
Stress factor:
- Environment ie school, "home"
- Socially
- Inner self
I shall elaborate some other time.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Once and for all
First week of sch, things been pretty busy and not to mention tiring. Partly bcoz of the lessons and all. The other reason? SHOPPING! before the Great Singapore Sales is over...
Summary of the first week --> Be a lazy bum and u may just find me picking up shits and cleaning asses for the rest of my life =(
There is so much things to do - presentations x 4, prep work and also the food trail..
I lurve to complain but at the same time enjoy the busy-ness of sch life.. one that I may not enjoy next yr.. just let me be~ I am a sadist..
Yesterday, I was the guide for the food trail where we r supposed to bring ppl around to show them the healthier food available.. I shall not elaborate b4 I get into any kind of trouble.. U see, Sg is a small small world and ppl like to make a big fuss out of nothing.. when I say big, I meant really B-I-G..
Like the any other day for the past few days, I woke up early, shower, changed, make up etc etc..
Then talked and talked and talked for that few hrs.. After that I feel so exhausted coz I've never talked so much b4..
After the whole thing finished, I felt so empty suddenly coz I've been anticipating this trail thing so much that I didn't plan what I want to do after that and hence the lazy sunday..
Btw, I want to watch world cup tonight or rather tmr early morning. I missed last season ie 4 yrs ago.. I shall not miss this yr too. Eventhough I am not soccer person, just got infected by the craze of the world cup season.
I realized something.. I keep on stumble upon the same "topic" again and again for the pass few days - Marriage and Pregnancy.
#1 Few days back, Jacz told me one of the guy from our batch at sec sch getting married soon or already have gotten married and expecting a child soon or already had a child.. (I got prob with retaining facts, ok?)
#2 Yesterday, Jacz (again, she's my only connection to the world beyond my social circle in sg) told me one of my best fren's bro is getting married end of this yr. It reminds me that we r stepping into the "age of marriage" in a few yrs time and before long we'll start receiving "red bombs". It'll be interesting to see from whom I receive my first invitation.
#3 Last night, my uncle's friend + wife came over for dinner. My lil' cousin will have new friend to play with soon. Before that, I met a lady from other grp who is pregnant during attachment.
#4 I dreamt bout one of my sec sch hi-bye fren. He's expecting a baby soon, I mean he's partner lar.. The weird thing is that, u know sometimes u will put ur ears on the pregnant abdomen with an attempt to listen for sounds?.. I did that, not on his partner but on his horribly flabby and stretch-marked abdomen (like he's been pregnant for several times).. Oh God~
I know I'm weird.
Summary of the first week --> Be a lazy bum and u may just find me picking up shits and cleaning asses for the rest of my life =(
There is so much things to do - presentations x 4, prep work and also the food trail..
I lurve to complain but at the same time enjoy the busy-ness of sch life.. one that I may not enjoy next yr.. just let me be~ I am a sadist..
Yesterday, I was the guide for the food trail where we r supposed to bring ppl around to show them the healthier food available.. I shall not elaborate b4 I get into any kind of trouble.. U see, Sg is a small small world and ppl like to make a big fuss out of nothing.. when I say big, I meant really B-I-G..
Like the any other day for the past few days, I woke up early, shower, changed, make up etc etc..
Then talked and talked and talked for that few hrs.. After that I feel so exhausted coz I've never talked so much b4..
After the whole thing finished, I felt so empty suddenly coz I've been anticipating this trail thing so much that I didn't plan what I want to do after that and hence the lazy sunday..
Btw, I want to watch world cup tonight or rather tmr early morning. I missed last season ie 4 yrs ago.. I shall not miss this yr too. Eventhough I am not soccer person, just got infected by the craze of the world cup season.
I realized something.. I keep on stumble upon the same "topic" again and again for the pass few days - Marriage and Pregnancy.
#1 Few days back, Jacz told me one of the guy from our batch at sec sch getting married soon or already have gotten married and expecting a child soon or already had a child.. (I got prob with retaining facts, ok?)
#2 Yesterday, Jacz (again, she's my only connection to the world beyond my social circle in sg) told me one of my best fren's bro is getting married end of this yr. It reminds me that we r stepping into the "age of marriage" in a few yrs time and before long we'll start receiving "red bombs". It'll be interesting to see from whom I receive my first invitation.
#3 Last night, my uncle's friend + wife came over for dinner. My lil' cousin will have new friend to play with soon. Before that, I met a lady from other grp who is pregnant during attachment.
#4 I dreamt bout one of my sec sch hi-bye fren. He's expecting a baby soon, I mean he's partner lar.. The weird thing is that, u know sometimes u will put ur ears on the pregnant abdomen with an attempt to listen for sounds?.. I did that, not on his partner but on his horribly flabby and stretch-marked abdomen (like he's been pregnant for several times).. Oh God~
I know I'm weird.
Sunday, July 02, 2006
Beginning of the Final...
Tmr marks the beginning of the final year.
What happened yesterday no longer important...
To prepare for the future is the priority..
Embrace the unknown,
Stepping through mine fields,
Unpredictable directions of the wind,
But as always,
The sun will rise from the east...
That is future - expected to come but yet so unpredictable
Finally 5 weeks of attachment is over, much to my relief. So many incidents, so much gossips going around.
New semester, New attitude, New resolution..
Resolution for the sem:
1) Study hard, play as hard. I'll never forgive myself if I ever let myself miss all the fun as a student on my final yr after being a student for a decade and a half.
2) Not to delay assignments/presentations until last minute.
3) Must do prep work for all the classes.
4) Think of a way to not-to-score badly for my NAPFA (some crappy fitness test). Omg.. I think this is my biggest obstacle. Urgh.
Plan - Start jogging 1, 3, 5.. plus a swimming session every week IF there's ppl willing to acc me *hint hint*.. But b4 that, I need a couple of running shorts and perhaps a new swimsuit.
U-R-G-H~
What happened yesterday no longer important...
To prepare for the future is the priority..
Embrace the unknown,
Stepping through mine fields,
Unpredictable directions of the wind,
But as always,
The sun will rise from the east...
That is future - expected to come but yet so unpredictable
Finally 5 weeks of attachment is over, much to my relief. So many incidents, so much gossips going around.
New semester, New attitude, New resolution..
Resolution for the sem:
1) Study hard, play as hard. I'll never forgive myself if I ever let myself miss all the fun as a student on my final yr after being a student for a decade and a half.
2) Not to delay assignments/presentations until last minute.
3) Must do prep work for all the classes.
4) Think of a way to not-to-score badly for my NAPFA (some crappy fitness test). Omg.. I think this is my biggest obstacle. Urgh.
Plan - Start jogging 1, 3, 5.. plus a swimming session every week IF there's ppl willing to acc me *hint hint*.. But b4 that, I need a couple of running shorts and perhaps a new swimsuit.
U-R-G-H~
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