Sunshine, Lollipops n Rainbows

The world would be a better place if there was more sunshine, lollipops and rainbows. Essays are not my thing, i just ramble on about anything and I jump from one thought to another before my fingers can keep up and i always re-read what i write to make sure it makes sense, most times, it doesnt, then i spend time rectifying it, which in the end takes too much time, i couldnt be bothered and so i just post it. I've never been good with blogs especially ones where feelings, emotions and principles are involved...makes me feel insecure revealing stuff in my brain and people (like you) are reading wutever it is in my mind. And also my principles change as my priorities evolve with life, hence invalidating wutever entry that i might have posted earlier (if i ever did) , and portraying myself as a hypocrite (well, at least i see myself as one). Anyway, enough about me. Human behaviour in general is complex. One of the common threads we have is complaining--- seems to tie everyone together. Everyone has something to complain about - the weather, crap tv programs, nothing to do on a friday nite, work, more work, study, more study, annoyed with the ducks and hens always seem to possess the ability to wake people up early morning, the public transport, the government........and everything else. Mayb complaining is just voicing your negative opinions?Make sure you complain to someone who does care about you or whatever you're complaining, if not, it just falls on deaf ears, u waste finger energy typing, saliva talking, and brain thinking. And we like to reminisce, well some more than others.....especially when u're not in ur comfort zone, it's the memories that bring you back to where ur zone is, until u're fine with ur new one. For some, u may never find ur comfort zone wherever u r. Im immune to whatever it is and try to have fun before i get too old to be going places that i shouldnt b going when im too old. My centre of life....i still dont know what it is : friends evolve too quickly, not as close to God as i should be, family is abroad, money leaves too fast, sick of materials, non existent social life, say no to alcohol and drugs, dont have a sustainable hobby to keep me interested.....so basically i havent find my core, rock whatever. Mayb i just think too much.Highschool was so much simpler and less challenging yet i do enjoy immersing myself in the stress of uni....yes enjoy....gives me a sense of satisfaction.....like im here, doing this...i know where im going....and where i'll probably end up. that is mayb the biggest thing i can count on and control....the chances of passing my test is proportional to the amt of knowledge i can retain,recall and utilize. I strive for control and routine---if im in a routine i can control what happens? sounds contradictory but yeah.
So Kengz, we've survived the 1st half of the next chapter in our life, following highschool. Feels like not so long ago, and the past few years are just a blur. Some memories are so vivid. Anyway, still young at heart you old fart (though im older than u) so have no regrets, work, play and dance ur youth away. MISS YA SO MUCH MY BUM ACHES~~~~